Most of my life has felt like a race with no clearly defined finish line. Running full speed ahead trying to achieve success, no matter what the cost. The issue however was my definition of success. I defined and measured my success based on three criteria …. fame, fortune and power. I never really had … More Learning to Stand Still
One afternoon driving through Rotterdam I noticed an advertisement for a Maritime Offshore Career Event. I wasn’t exactly sure what a Maritime Offshore Career Event was, but I knew what the words ‘Career Event’ meant. Since I needed a career, I figured I had nothing to lose, so I registered. I had been to career … More Hi Ho Hi Ho, It’s Off To ……
I’m riding in the train, staring out the window traveling between Amsterdam and Rotterdam. Right now my life feels full, filled with clarity. I wish that was true, but it’s not. My life feels instead like a jigsaw puzzle. I’m staring at a bunch of puzzle pieces spread out before me, not quite sure how … More Feeling Content When Nothing Is Clear
I sat down many times in an attempt to write this blog, but words just kept escaping me. The curser would just keep flashing on my blank screen trying to signal my brain to write something ….. anything ….. but nothing was happening. In fact as I sit here the words aren’t coming easily. I … More Experience Never Gets Old.
I grip the bar with both hands swinging in mid-air trying to gain the courage to let go. Slowly I loosen the grip of one hand ….. I’ve never done this before, I’m nervous, so I tighten my grip again. I want to let go and experience what it’s like to fly, but I’m too … More My Life As A Proverbial Flying Trapeze Artist
Yesterday I woke up to find my social media flooded with prayers for Belgium. I wanted to react, to say something impactful, but instead I just sat there, staring at a blank screen with a sense of nothingness. For the longest time I honestly couldn’t even begin to put into words what I was feeling, … More One Name Can Overcome One Word
I dread small talk. I honestly can’t be bothered to have a conversation just for the sake of having a conversation. I don’t even understand why we call it small talk because for me its the most awkward conversation to have, there is nothing small about it. I understand when I meet someone for the … More My Life as a Social Introvert (Part 1)
If I could pick a super power, I would want the power to speak in the secret language of movie quotes. I’m always in awe of people who have the ability to watch a movie and then interject those one liners into everyday conversation ….. I on the other hand suck at remembering movie quotes. … More Planting Trees Under Whose Shade I May Never Sit
If you would have told me that my entire self worth was tied up in my outward appearance I would have NEVER believed you ….. until yesterday. I found myself sitting in the hair salon waiting for my appointment. The anxiety I had was overwhelming and I was really struggling to hold it together and … More When Did I Become My Hair?
I’m not sure how to explain what it feels like when you find “your something”. Something that resonates deep down in your soul Something that just feels so right, so natural Something that you can’t imagine not doing for the rest of your life Something that puts your entire life in balance Something that is … More When You Finally Find Your Something While Walking In The Winderness